Monday, September 19, 2005
i'm scareddd. can you feel that my heart is beating super fast. i bet you can. ahh. helppp. i'm hyper-ventilating. well, maybe not that much. but i will. once TOMORROW comes.
mep practical is tomorrow. TOMORROW.
okay. that point is very clear. the tomorrow in caps is practically of no use. ahh. who cares. and i'm typing crap. ahh.
and my pieces are all screwed up. i can't play my semi-quavers properly. i definitely do not play my pieces expressively. i... i... i... ahh. there's just something wrong.
oh great. calm down. i need to calm down. and i still don't have any tranquilizers at home.
piano exam is on wednesday. WEDNESDAY. the day after tomorrow.
yes. that point is even more clear. die. scales. i don't know how to play melodic minor!! and my appeggios. ahh. i can't SING for aural. i can't play the mordents properly for my pieces. i cannot aim for the right notes. ahh. if i fail again, i'm so going to kill myself.
breathe in. breathe out. i still don't feel any better. oh wells.
i'm so running out of time. better catch up with my studying. like syaz. she even study on the bus even when the exams are not THAT near. i'm still on my second chapter of science. oh nice.
ahh. i'm wasting time again. alright.
au revoir!
i made a mistake which torn everything apart. i'm trying to piece everything back together again.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
5:00 AM